Snippets of My Life

2011-12-16T21:32:00.006+08:00

Zoukout 2011
(got these photos from Jes. credits to her)

It was one crazy crazy night. It's my first time partying with almost 30 people in a night. I got quite tipsy that night. I always tell myself to stay cool and drink in moderation but whenever I see Jaggermeister I can't help but to drink drink and drink. Shots after shots.

Thanks to everyone for looking after me and also being such a wonderful friend especially my girls - Peggy, Sandy, Peijuan, Soozhen, Sheeyee and Chris. My life will suck without you.

I can't wait for Zoukout 2012. You girls and boys made my day even my week.
Great party, great way to end 2011.

2011-12-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

the only time i feel like blogging is when i feel like shit
thank ~~God~~ MYSELF for having this blog
I should stop mentioning God. God is over-rated. lol

i should give myself more credits to this wonderful lifetime
speaking of wonderful, today hasn't been quite a good day for me
Again, it's about my iPod

a recap on my 3 short lived iPods

My First iPod got stolen when i was shopping at Orchard
My Second iPod got drown by the sea water
My Third iPod dropped onto the pavement now the screen is broken into fragments

3 ipod touches in a period of 1.5yrs...
i feel like a curse. apple products are just not for me.
i have no one but myself to blame

i'm going to sim lim tomorrow to get the broken screen fixed and also get a new silicon cover for maximum protection

2011-12-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

today, i gave a lot of thought about life...
about deaths, about how dissatisfied people are these days...

people are becoming more and more superficial these days
since sex is easier to get, love got hard to find
there isn't true love anymore

we don't know how to appreciate the littlest things in life anymore...
all people cared about is getting the latest iPhone, games and all the other rubbish...
all these things shouldn't determine our quality of life but it already had

the world today disgust me
slavery has been taken to a whole new level, the poor gets poor the rich get richer
all people cared about is earning big bucks and then show it off
really, at the end of the day, does it make them a happier person?

2011-10-15T02:15:00.002+08:00

Blending 2 photos together. Love the effect!

2011-10-13T22:37:00.008+08:00

The Longest Hangover

Last night was the first time I partied on a Ladies' Night. The very rare occasions that I see the benefit of being a female.

I had a blast. Drank a little more that I could take. I only wanted to get high but gotten drunk instead. I greeted stranger as if I knew them for the last decade. It was crazy! I had zero control of myself.

Then again, I committed the same mistake I did approx. 2 months ago. Only this time, it was brought up to a whole new level. What the fuck is wrong with me? I refuse to admit but I think... I kinda hate the intoxicated me.

Anyways, that aside, because of this incident then I realize how much my girlfriends meant to me. I love them all so much. x

2011-10-10T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hello, Stranger!

Looking back at my previous blog post it made me wonder why did I decide to quit blogging all together? I had so much fun updating my life and now that I have entered this whole new phase in life, blogging doesn't seemed to matter so much.

It's a pity that I didn't manage to do a blog entry on those "special" days of my life the past 1-2 years. I can now only rely on the photos on facebook that I got tagged etc. but it's still not the same.

Then I said it again, I want to start blogging again but never once did I kept my word. Just like all the empty promises I made to myself. Dieting? Improve my grades? Who am I kidding?

And then there is this strange feeling about coming back. Like revisiting an old friend whom I betrayed. It's never gonna be the same ever again...

2011-08-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

Reminder To Self: Never measure your own happiness against how happy other people's lives seem

and I need to stop hating myself!

2011-08-30T20:10:00.004+08:00

again,
the strong urge to leave everything behind
and wanting to leave this place forever

what's stopping me?
i wonder.

my family? my friends?

they don't know me no more
neither will do i allow them into my messed up world of my own

there isn't a day i live by
not hoping and praying that all this misery will one day go away

i hate my life to the bitter end

i understand that life is full of ups and downs
but i am at the down side for too long... way... too... long...

i blame no one but myself for all these shit i created
but please tell me that all these suffering be worth fight for

i feel so lonely... so weak right now
i need a hug
i need assurance

but still, i refuse to seek for help

2011-08-29T18:51:00.004+08:00

if only one could die of guilt
i would have been gone by now

and i wish i could drop everything i have now and run
what i need now is freedom

real freedom
not the freedom teenagers yearn for
because all that are bullshit

i hate how this world works
(my country in particular)
everything is about money

people are so materialistic
they forgot how to appreciate the little things in life

every single day i am surrounded by these people
i hear people comparing grades and shit
it disgust me

how can our intelligence be judge based on a stupid test?

what have we all become?

these shallow little motherfuckers
i wish i could set them all on fire

i am only 19 yet i am already so tired of living

2011-08-18T22:56:00.004+08:00

Here I am again
Me alone with my very messed up thoughts

How I wish I didn't exist
If only I can disappear like a bubble...

2011-08-17T11:46:00.005+08:00

Since you left
Words I weave are meaningless, pointless
My pen keeps wondering about you

I miss every part of you
You laughter, your smile, your scent

Your gentle soul and words I really miss

I thought I meant something to you
For you mean the world to me

I trusted you
I gave you my all

People say time heals everything
It's been 5 years now since it happened
How long more do I have to wait?

You change my perception of the term "friendship"
But then again I don't deny that what we had back then was incomparable to all the friendship I've had all my life

You're so fucking special

2011-07-28T23:16:00.003+08:00

Feeling of discontent with who you are as a person
Struggling to find your identity
Having trouble dealing with social environment

Welcome to my life!

2011-07-27T23:10:00.001+08:00

2011-07-17T15:31:00.000+08:00

2011-06-26T22:15:00.003+08:00

It's time to bid farewell to freedom

I had a time of my life during the two weeks of my holiday. Here's a list of places I went to.

1. Sungei Buloh
2. Alley Bar @ Somerset
3. Farmart @ Choa Chu Kang
4. Marina Barrage
5. Settlers Cafe @ Clarke Quay
6. Henderson Wave

Now it's time to face reality. Attachment for the next 2 weeks!

2011-06-25T22:13:00.000+08:00

Paradox of Life

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but
shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but
have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller
families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less
sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems,
more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,
drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too
little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too
much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We’ve learned how to make a
living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years. We’ve
been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street
to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve
done larger things, but not better things. We’ve cleaned up the air, but
polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write
more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to
rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to
produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods, and slow digestion, big men and small
character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of
two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are
days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night
stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to
quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and
nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to
you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just
hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going
to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to
you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your
side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is
the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.

Remember, to say, “I love you” to your partner and your loved ones, but
most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from
deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for
someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to
speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

2011-06-19T01:57:00.002+08:00

This is why I say, LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT is fucking bullshit.

2011-06-18T01:56:00.002+08:00

Planing an Escape

I have thoughts about leaving the country. Silly as it sounds but just the mere thought of it makes me happy.

2011-06-17T00:57:00.004+08:00

Best friend NO MORE

Today, while I was drawing, my brother came knocking on my door wanting to borrow my laptop to check out the movies I downloaded. He then decided to check out my iTunes as well and made a very casual remark saying, "Woah, Debra, you are old."

Well, old as in the songs I listen to are really "old". Some dated way back in the 50's (my parents weren't even born then!) Sometimes, I wish I could I lived in those days. Life is much simpler then. Education and career wasn't the only thing people cared about. Really, there is more to life than money, money, money!!

And so I concluded. The chances of me finding my dream best friend just got lowered by at least 50%. No one my age that I know of listens to songs like Tennessee Walt, Oh! Carol or Sad Movies.

2011-06-15T21:29:00.005+08:00

My best friend. Where are you?

It's been awhile since I regarded someone as my best friend. Someone who understands me and is willing to hear me rant about my day. I used to tell people that I don't need one since I already have a couple of good friends by my side. What more, I have a supportive family.

But then recently, I feel that my life lacking of something. I need that someone whom I can call "best friend".

It's not that my group of friends are not good enough for me. It's just that I feel that I should treat them all equally and no one should be the ''special'' one. Or it wouldn't be fair for all.

Well, I used to have best friends but somehow, our friendship didn't last long. Both friendship lasted a good 2 years and I really open up to them. We would talked about everything under the sun for hours! We did what all best friends would do (go for movies, chilling, take a walk on the beach etc.) I miss those days. I wish I could turn back time and stop whatever I did that ended our friendship.

I feel that it's these "incidents" that made me lost hope in finding the perfect best friend. Because each time they left me for someone new, I felt that they took a piece of me with them and that really hurts. After 2 incidents, I guess I just given up finding my new best friend. Am I really that bad for a friend? I want to know what went wrong then.

Dear God, this June, I wish for nothing but best friend and not a boyfriend.

2011-06-14T12:23:00.002+08:00

I wish I could watch the sunrise at Grand Canyon.

2011-06-14T11:09:00.004+08:00

#nowplaying - Don't Look Back In Anger by Oasis

I didn't know what better way to begin this post. Maybe my choice of music this morning tells something about my mood today?

I woke up feeling a strong urge to pack up and leave this place I call home. Not that I hate my family. I am sick of the things I see and do here in Singapore. I want to go somewhere quiet. Somewhere far far away. Whatever I do wherever I go here in Singapore, I feel that I am being watched. Being judge. Fuck this shit.

I want a live away from this hustle and bustle city.

Some place where I will hear no construction sound (that irritating scraping, shoveling and hammering sound), traffic sound (annoying cars zooming by and honking) and crowds!

2011-06-13T23:09:00.005+08:00

There's something that I've been overly concerned about for the longest time.

I am afraid of being JUDGE I understand that I can't stop people from judging me and in fact, I can't stop myself from judging people as well.

But the number of things I am (or should I say we are) being judge for is atrocious! People judge by our choice of music, the brand of clothes we wear, the food we eat, the gadgets we use and the list just goes on and on. Seriously, sometimes, I get confuse with the terms "judging" and "stereotyping".

Why are people so shallow these days? Why are people so materialistic, perfectionist and what not. Is appearance all that matters? Does love at first sight really exist?

I have to say. Sometimes, I really wish I can escape this fucking shit we call society and this stupid shit list of norms. I want to be myself. Do whatever I want and not what others see as the "right thing to do". Who are they to know what is right and wrong for me. I only live once and I want to live life to the fullest.

2011-06-12T03:32:00.004+08:00

Hello, my old blog! How have you been?

I have been neglecting this blog for the longest possible time since I migrated to tumblr. I feel guilty sometimes. It's just as good as neglecting an old friend.

It's been with been for years now. Been through thick and thin and it is always there to cheer me up whenever I am down (well, not that it suddenly burst out of the screen and give me a hug. It's about writing (or rather typing) that gives this amazing therapeutic effect that makes me happy).

Nonetheless, it's good to be back here updating about my life. Ok, so time now is 4am. I am now updating my blog with my new spanking hot red laptop which I've gotten just 4hours ago. I finally have my own laptop! Now I can bookmark all my favorite sites and will not need to borrow laptop from my friends during presentation.
It wasn't a must-have but I just felt it was more convenient to have one for myself.

I had a hard time deciding on the brand of laptop I should get. Whether or not it should a windows or mac. And finally, after long consideration, I decided on a 13' inch MacBook Pro. I am really happy now. I hope it can last me for a long long time.

2011-05-08T17:05:00.004+08:00

My AWESOME weekend

not forgetting to mentioned that I watched 2 great movies too.
fast and furious 5 and thor! it's definitely a must watch movie!

2011-05-02T15:11:00.007+08:00

The Last Day of April

In the morning I attended a course on social etiquette and fine dining. We had to attend a theory for about 5-6hrs and then we headed to a restaurant at Habourfront for the practical part. Never in my life has I ate so slowly before. There is so much rules to fine dining. Seriously, there is no way I am going be able live in a royal family.

Our 3 most beloved lecturers in Np!

While waiting for queue in F21. It's so packed!

Lovely ladies from the YEP trip.

The boys went drinking while we were shopping. Somehow, I still think that they are a little tipsy but they in denial.

After which, I went to meet ss and then we headed off to powerhouse. I didn't want to go at first because I was pretty tired but then it's been awhile since we meet plus there's still a bottle belvedere vodka left from my birthday!

Ken's expression is damn funny!

I just bought that black fedora hat. I love it! It's very versatile and I foresee myself wearing it the next few days!

2011-05-02T14:39:00.009+08:00

Genting Highland

Never in my life have we won so many stuff toys in a day!

my new found love

my idea!! :D

2011-05-02T11:32:00.023+08:00

Labour Day Weekend

It's been long since I have had 2 days off to spend some quality time alone. The YEP trip and then the following week - Genting trip. If I know that I am gonna have so much fun during the YEP trip, I wouldn't have signed up for the Genting Trip. At first, I was thinking that the Genting Trip will act as like a reward for myself. Anyway what's done is done. I enjoyed myself anyway!

While I was in Philippines, I celebrated my 19th Birthday. Tita Silvia bought me a cake which until now I am still very touched by it. (although Dr Ron hinted her that it was my birthday). They showered me with so much love that, words can't express how happy I felt that day. Each year I pray that my friends forget about my birthday and quit thinking about surprising me and all because I really don't want them wasting time, money and effort on me.

But yet each year it gets better and better. Thank you all for making me feel like a princess. I really appreciate it. I am truly grateful for the love.

I had 2 celebrations this year. One was in the Philippines the other was back in Singapore.
Thank you sunshine! :D

These are some of my favorite pictures during the YEP trip
(Joseph's awesome photography skill)

Eating with our fingers!

Provision shop at the village

Looking at squatter for the first time R&R - Island Hopping

Still can't believe these all all taken by a holga like camera

Momo's awesome photography skill I sure miss traveling on jeeps

Last but not least, MY (not very awesome) photos

My new straw hat which cost me only 7sgd

This is the kind of picture I'm looking forward to capture!

My new found tatay!

stealing the wi-fi outside chow king. apprently, they knew what we are up to and they keep changing their password.

Lunch was served in a aluminium "cup"

my beloved bunk mates

she's everyone's favorite girl

time to say goodbye T.T

boodle fight

master ronnie

a jeep that resembles the magic school bus!

ron mraz

The cast of Tayong Dalawa is really popular in Philippines. Everywhere I go I see Kim Chui (Audrey King) and Jake (Dave)

Olivia!

Too bad for me I couldn't get the DVD for Tayong Dalawa. I heard from our tour guide that it's illegal to sell it there in the Philippines too. Sad. Well, at least I have one of the sound track on my iPod.

2011-04-17T18:21:00.002+08:00

This is weird but intially, I was reluctant to leave for the YEP trip and now I can only say that if it wasn't for that trip I wouldn't know that there were so many beautiful souls living in this place called Earth.

I truly enjoyed this trip. So much that until know (4 days since I've been back), I still feel that a part of me is left in the lovely Davao City, Philippines.

I will update my blog on the trip when I'm free.

Today is also the last day of holiday. School has not started yet I already have plans for myself. I am going to try and aim for a GPA of 3.5 this sem and also another YEP trip in March 2012. I will make it happen (provided if it's organized by Dr Dave)!

2011-03-30T14:34:00.008+08:00

Pictures from SS chalet (25-27th March 2011)

Body found after tsunami

I love everything abt this pic!

Collage is so addictive! Not only it easier to upload 4 pics at once but it also makes me pictures more interesting and most importantly, beautiful!

2011-03-29T17:38:00.004+08:00

In 2 day's time...

I will be leaving for my YEP trip in Davao City, Philippines. I was looking forward to it since the day Dr Ron announced it during a lecture. But for the past 2-3 days I am beginning to wonder if I can ever survive during that 14 days. I will have to leave my comfort zone almost completely.

From busy city life to simple old rural living. On top of that, I will have to wash my own clothes and also need to overcome my fear of disgusting cockroaches. I heard that there's a lot there in the Philippines.

Of course I have been told of all this even before signing up for the trip but I somehow I was ''braver'' then...

Further more, I have motion sickness and I am very afraid of being dirty. It's terrible. Esp now when I am in nursing, I do hand rub very often. I am really very very scared. Everyday I scrub myself really hard from head to toe. When I bathe my patients I also made sure I shower them clean as clean as I am. Sometimes, they smell so good that I tempted to give them a kiss on their forehead.

Also, I wouldn't be having any fancy birthday party this year. Well, for the past few years I didn't want to celebrate it but this year when I actually want to, I am away for the trip. Damn!! I wanted to celebrate because it's the last time I will be seeing the digit 1 in my age. Like next yr, if I am celebrating, I will be 20yo alr.

And I thought about cooking a meal for all SS and Agnes n co. Like a bowl of rice similar to yokshinoya. Then buy a cake for myself and celebrate it with my family. I haven't done that for yrs now... the last time was when I was 8? No kidding...

Of course, the best birthday party will be one at disneyland. Why oh why Sg don't have disneyland har!!

Then I will buy balloons like that...

The older I get, the more childish I get. I love Disney very much. I love bright colors and I love balloons so I bought them for my birthday girls Bella, Shifa and Sy.

This year I am getting myself a laptop as a birthday present. Actually it shouldn't be a present cuz like I needed it for school. So now I am thinking whether to get it Apple or other brands like Asus etc. I haven't consult anyone yet. We'll see...

Back to the YEP trip... My friends are so far so good and Dr Dave has been really good to us too. The things he do and the way he talks just makes us feel less stress. I really don't know why... Sometimes, he reminds me of my Daddy too. In terms of size haha

2011-03-06T23:30:00.008+08:00

I think I found a new love...

I no longer have the motivation to go on and keep this blog alive. Tumblr and Twitter plays a big part of my life now. It's easier to update there as I don't use the computer as often.
I'm often on the little palm size gadget I call my love while others call it the iPod touch. Things has changed.

Here are few random pictures taken using my hp.

The most sincere Ang Bao I've ever gotten. It's from my neighbour!

Again, I have been having a hard time mugging for the finales and my table was in a huge mess for at least 10 days. Thank God it's over now!

Got bored studying...

Cotton!

100% handwritten. It was my punishment back when I was Sec 3.
The then VP wanted me to write 500 lines of this crap that didn't change me.
I'm still the girl with the foul mouth and never lady like.
Well, if hiao is lady like, then I may have changed!

So sweet. I miss band badly.

On Bella's birthday, we went to a Vietnamese restaurant at Holland V. It's merely 4-5 bus stops away from NP.

Apparently, this Vietnamese always serve bean sprout for free which comes with the meal.
Speak about healthy lifestyle!
Pity I am not a big fan of it!

Beef Noodles!

My princess for a day.

Cheap cupcakes we got from the nearby bakery which tasted surprisingly good!

And tomorrow, is Day 1 of my attachment. This time around, I am assigned to SGH.
Looking forward to improving my patient's life.

2011-02-05T14:26:00.004+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year

This year, everything seemed short and sweet. Not much photo taking too. Steamboat at my father's side was awesome. The standard never drops! I ate lots and lots of abalone and all the expensive stuff~ They are gonna need to last me till the next CNY. By then I will be 2-0 alr. Damn, I feel old!

Anyway, to keep things short and sweet like my CNY this here are two pictures I took from last year's CNY and this year...

Owen and Jacob grown so much over the year and they are almost just as tall as my Bro already. It's unbelievable cuz their daddy are not very tall. Say, 168-170cm?

Yesterday, we also went to Jordan's place at a condo called The Summit. That place is so beautiful. I wish I lived there too. The exterior design is just...

Here's a picture of the condo.

Jordan's house is just at the fifth storey I think I am looking at it right now but I don't rmb which unit. Anyway, my cousins played in the pool just too. We kept asking them to do stuns for us somersault etc. and I rewarded them by giving them new year goodies we brought downstairs.

We all had a great laugh and it always bring back the good old memories.

Oh and all over us told the adults that maybe it's time that we go on a holiday since we haven't been to one for ages (one big family all tgt). I want to go Orland, Florida. I need to visit Universal Studios and Disneyland before I die!! I want to relive my childhood memories before it's too late.

2011-01-30T20:34:00.008+08:00

Van's 19th Birthday

I am the proud organizer for her birthday surprise. Of course, nothing is possible without the help for the rest who attended yesterday and last Agnes!! She and I were both noobs at such stuff. Actually, we have very similar personality just that she is clever while I am the more bad-tempered one.

We took tons and tons of picture yesterday until the DSLR died on us and had to resort to using Linda's iPod touch. Which becomes me camwhoring tool. Pictures from Van's DSLR are not up yet but the one from Linda's iPod is ready to be displayed on my blog.

Before I go there, it's been raining the whole day!! I had a really hard time keeping myself awake while studying today. Why is the weathers so weird these two days? Yesterday, it was bright and sunny in the morning I was so looking forward to flying kites at Marina Barrage and all and them boomzzz it rained. Wtf. I actually thought all my plan was going to be ruin. Thank God we found some sheltered area that kept us dry the whole time.

Oh and one more thing. Yesterday was the first time I tired to fly a kite. It obviously didn't went well for me. I can't run and I have not idea how to release the kite. Apparently, it's not as easily as I thought. You gotta release it toward the wind direction. It's like to facilitate the kite to fly high up into the air. Not only we we not managed to keep the kite up in the sky, we tangled the string. Well, at least Carel and her bf managed to let one up into the sky for like 20mins? Pretty high I must say.

Say no more and here are the pictures~

This picture is take using the back camera of the lastest iPod touch. It's really clear.
While the rest below are taken from the front camera.

My clique since Day 1 in Poly >

Carel! Thanks to her good acting skills everything went as planned!

I rmb during the first few days of school lots of people mistaken me for her.
How can they not tell the difference?
One is snow white the other one is fat mulan

I love my yellow tank top I got from the maternity section @ Topshop.
The color is so cute!
Btw, I have been looking for it for the longest time. Every one that I've tried are way to transparent. So, what better way than to get it from the maternity section? Haha. No lah I didn't know it was for maternity until Ag told me.

So since the weather wasn't on our side yesterday, I again suggest to do stupid things. Lousier gets inked on their face. And this was what happened...

Cha Ah Gua from Changi

Likeafool

I think Carel one is the funniest leh.
Her Fb actually drew like a tiger's nose on her cuz she was wearing leopard preeens

I actually played this game once when SS was at my house. We only drew little moles and beard but this time round was more hiong. I am so gonna buy eyeliners when I meet SS out during CNY!!

After that, the rest of them left leaving Van Ag Yan Linda and I. We went to have steamboat at a place called Tian tian hou gou at Bugis. The one which I went to with James Cs and Jy went during last year April. Damn, time flies so fast. I hope all are still doing well now.

After our steamboat, we went shopping (again!) I got myself a really cute top and it was a perfect fit! What more, it only cost me fucking $10. So happy!

The 5 of us bought fake glasses and they must have took this picture while I was shopping.

Anyway, CNY is around the corner but I can't enjoy it to the fullest because my first major exam is also around the corner too. But that's ok because I don't really like CNY either.

Here's something I've been thinking since last night....

Why do the Chinese only bother to get themselves all dressed up esp on CNY? What are they implying, really? Does it mean that you should look extra beautiful for the people whom u only meet annually?
Shouldn't we look beautiful every single day and not just on CNY. Same goes for mother's day. Why do we need it srly? We should love our mother every single day and not just mother's day.

I can go even further with this. All the campaigns in Sg. Esp those about being gracious. Shouldn't such things be taught long ago. Why should we be reminded every now and then. Why isn't there another way to promote such thing? Like more discreetly. I do feel embarrassed when foreigners sees them, I swear.

Singapore, are you really a 1st world country with a 3rd world mindset?

2011-01-28T20:45:00.005+08:00

Blur me or me blur

It's been a pretty bad week for me the past few days. I keep loosing my stuff. On Thursday I lost a really cute polka dot water bottle I bought from Daiso and today, I lost my AAP and NSL notes which I just copied down important stuff after lesson. Damn, I am really very blur and I get distracted easily! Thanks to all my dear friends for their concern though. I really appreciate it :) Nonetheless, here are a couple of pictures I took over the past two days when I was shopping in town.

Van and Ag
It's Van's first time at Aston's. The food there is fantastic and it's really cheap.

We were at Marina on Thurs and there's this mini display of rabbits going on. They were really cute! I took a few pic of the fav few...

I really don't know what they eat everyday. The rabbits were HUGE. Not exaggerating but they are the bigges rabbits I've seen in my 18yrs of life.

This one even more power! Got double chin one!!! If my Dad is a rabbit he will be this rabbit for sure! Yes, they are cute but they are not quite as cute as this little friend here.

**SQUEALS** So cute!! It's fur feel almost like cotton candy. Everyone was busy molesting this little cutie here. Actually, it's body is really really small but the fur is so puffy that it looks big.

and these are a few of my favorite (random) things

Yami yogurt with premium nuts as topping

Vintage clothes from Topshop.
It has the nicest shade of brown.

Elmo makes me happy.
On the side note, the little cute water bottle is the one I lost

Lastly, this is how I've been studying for the past few nights.
Soon, I will say goodbye to my near perfect eyesight

I will be going to Marina Barrage tmr for a picnic to celebrate Van's birthday. I am so looking forward to it. Can't wait to take pretty pictures and upload it on my blog

2011-01-20T17:45:00.007+08:00

1.5 more days to the WEEKENDS!!!

First things first, here's a couple of pictures from tumblr that made me ROFL.

Funny Fat Kid

Family guy is ❤

Haha, I saved the best for the last. So fucking funny!!
Tumbling @ thedeberella.tumblr.com

I think I am more active at tumblr as compared to blogspot because it's just so convenient to blog between lessons using tumblr app.

It's down to 1.5 more days to the weekend. I am not looking forward to it much although I sounded like I was looking I was. That's because I have duty on Sunday. It's part of my YEP programme in school. I guess NP has like a deal with whatever association that has sponsored us for the trip and to make it possible we have to serve our country first before serving other nation. Oh well, so I have to be a good girl and go ahead with it.

Anyway, my ''duty'' on Sunday is to actually to help out participants for the Duathlon at East Coast Park. It's super far away from Jurong and worse of all, I have to get my big fat ass there by 7am and it ends at 4pm. There goes my beautiful Sunday.

I will try to squeeze in another 2 shopping trip this coming Saturday and another one next Thurs. Lol, how is that ''squeeze'' but still!! Lots of test, project, birthday celebration and CNY coming up so I must quickly get a decent dress and a couple of blouse for school. I am running out of clothes to wear. No, I should say I am getting bored with the clothes I wear to school...

I don't know why I am feeling so lethargic all the time and worse still, I have no mood for lectures. I can't seemed to keep focus and it's getting on my nerves, I swear. I hope I will regain my active self back soon and mug hard for my first and coming major exam in March!! I must bring up my GPA and score more As.... Huat ahhhhhh

2011-01-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

Songs I can't start my day without...

Grenade - Bruno Mars

Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

I just hope both the songs are not for the same girl. If not it'd fucked up.

2011-01-14T20:11:00.001+08:00

Potluck session @ my place with SS

2011-01-14T19:04:00.007+08:00

TGIF

It's been a pretty good week for me. Last weekend my mum brought me around Orchard for shopping. She's a crazy shopper herself. We spent hours in new look trying out different clothes and random picking out clothes (kids/teens section included) and then we went to a couple more shops too.

That day along I got myself a pair of high waisted pants (like finally!!), a anchor print shirt that looks really cute. My mum chose it from Forever 21 and it has an interesting story behind it. Mum picked it up on some random rack on one of the level in the big ass Forever 21 @ 313. She said 2 young girls like my age started following her in hopes of getting the anchor shirt. We bought it anyway.

It's really really cute but it doesn't look cute on me because my fat arms makes it too ''masculine'' already. Also, after that we went to TopShop and we saw this very beautiful dress on a manikin. I actually tried finding it online. It was on the site just a few days ago and I have no idea why it isn't there anymore.

Anyway, here's a similar dress that we saw only that this is not as nice. The cutting is exactly the same but the design is very different.

$116
SPLURGE!!

My cousin was trying the dress so I made a random remark saying that my aunt is really nice to my cousin. I did not to it on purpose!! So then my mum said, ''if you really want it, I can buy it for you too you know?'' O.O

I got a shock of life and rejected IMMEDIATELY. Woah, why did I do to deserve all the love from my family? I feel the guilt man!! (Esp after all the things my mum bought me recently).

[While looking through the clothes at topshop online, I found 2 pieces of dress that I like]

I saw this brown dress while shopping last week on the manikin as well but I can't seem to find it on the shelf etc. We are not fated!!

I got this from NewLook last Sunday while shopping with SY.
Love @ first sight!

I have no idea why is this piece on sale. I find it really cute. The usual price was about $70 and I got it at only $43 :D

I might be wearing this for CNY day one with the high waisted pants. Not the best outfit so I may need to buy a dress next week or maybe this weekend. Mafan lah

Anyway the top I got is apparently called Pussybow Blouse. The name is as cute as the blouse! I think they are in this season. Evey where I go, I see them in all forms and design. I find that it's a little mature at first but when I stare at it longer the more irresistible I it to be (when can I ever find a man like that?)

Oh and the problem with this blouse is that it is pretty hard to match it. It actually looks weird with lots of bottoms and so far of all the bottoms I tried only high waisted short looks more... appropriate.

[Feeling very happy when I talk about clothes. TMD what have I become?!!]

If I go for shopping again this week or maybe next week, I may wanna get a one shoulder dress. I think I can still afford to expose one fat arm and then the thing about being fat is that the CUTTING and DESIGN is reallyyyyyy important therefore, I can hardly get nice dresses from like say, Bugis Street? It's almost impossible.

I don't wish to be slim and wear clothes from bugis anymore. I given that stupid dream of mine long ago. Instead, starting today. I want to try and go for quality over quantity meaning, clothes might be a little pricey but makes me look a ''slimmer''. I don't know if I have the $$ for the change or not but I will try!

Shopping aside...

On Tuesday, I received a very good news from Dr Jay. There was an error to 2 question in our CMbio paper. And when they did the correction, I actually jumped 1 and 1/2 grade which means I got a B+ grade for my paper. I am soooo happy!! It's wayyyyy better than I expected. I was only aiming for a B the other time. Hehe. I am out of the C region for theory paper. Woah, happy. I thought I was going to be cui for 3 years.

And on Monday, a few friends of mine got their O level results. There are good and bad ones. I congratulated them and welcome them to the new phase of their life. Well, it's no better than the O level period when you mug like one crazy ass.

In poly, every day is filled with stress, assignments and worse of all PROJECTS. I am better off working alone. So it was always a constant struggle for me when doing projects. I always like to put in my ideas and then correcting everyone's work even if I am not the leader. I can only agree to my own work and when people gives me shoddy work I get really mad and utter all vulgarities and swear like there's no tomorrow. I know myself but I just can't control...

I like to do work short and sweet whereas some of my friends prefer to take it slow and then try to prefect it after subsequent meet ups or group discussion.

Not to go on with this topic. Can feel myself getting mad already.

Anyway, for those who didn't do well. I hope that they will just move on in life and stop thinking that O level is a gateway to making good money and leading a good life. Move on. Do something that interest you and strive for the best.

The world is going to end in 2012 anyway so just take it easy lah...

Happy new year once again to myself and those who are reading my blog which I don't know even exist or not.

I wonder how long then can I stop wishing people Happy New Year.

It's still 14 Jan still quite ''fresh'' for a year...

2011-01-07T20:38:00.008+08:00

Seventh Jan Twenty Eleven

In the wink of an eye, the first week of the year had just gone by. I try not to waste any time but I still have a tough time keeping myself awake in the day. Like now, my eyes are stinging and I feel very sleepy. If I go to bed now I am going into a deep deep sleep.

Speaking of which, mummy just got me a new set of bed frame and a mattress. It wasn't my intention to get a mattress at first but because when you purchase these things you are bound to get crazy discount. The bed frame itself cost about $400 and the mattress is $900. The salesperson told me that it has a pocket spring function whereby when you hop onto the bed, you wouldn't be disturbing the one sleeping bedside you. It's featured one of the few commercial I see on tv too.

I am so glad that it works! I was not convinced of it's wonderful function until the day it was delivered to my house. Anyway the bed frame and the mattress actually cost my mum a total of 1k. Which is ridiculously cheap compared to the ''usual/scammed price''. Also on the same day, my mum got me the most powerful table lamp which is able to lit up 50% of my room. I am so happy. I wanted to get it a long time ago during the O level period and the old man just keeps forgetting it. He only remember to buy me food one lah.

Anyway, my school work is not getting easier. Everything is in a big mess right now. I have more weird latin names to remember and worse of all we study about neuron now and it's not impossible it visualize. But it's really interesting, I must say.

Oh and on a random note, I have been in Ngee Ann for almost a year now. Time does fly doesn't it? I still can remember my first day in Shuqun. I was carrying a big ass OP bagpack with tons of books in it and I had really long skirt and it got shorter as the days went by and then long again when I finally realize how big my thighs actually are... Actually I knew it long ago I am just constantly figuring ways to conceal it. Like for instance, now I know a fat girl needs a good pair of jeans.

I can't really remember much of my days in secondary school which is pretty bad since I am there only 2 years ago. This is when, I feel thankful for this blog that I have created back in Sec 1! Never mind the bad English and colorful font I used back then. It only means that I am young and youthful. Although I don't blog as often now, it's nice to look back at the pictures and then recall the good old times.

Before I go... This this the meaning of One Size Fits ALL

2011-01-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year

This post in coming in a little late. But!! Better late than never. I had a great time at St. James Powerhouse that night. I drank quite a bit because I wanted to get high fast as Howsun and his friend wanted to go the the dancefloor and I didn't want to keep them waiting.

It was my first time clubbing with howsun! It was quite an experience but too bad he had to go off earlier which I don't understand why. In fact, I didn't know he went off until soozhen told me. It was really crowded that night but not as crowded as the other time I went when all the students in Sg are having their holidays. What better way to let that stress off other than clubbing?

Anyway, I paid a whopping $35 for the entrance fee that night. I thought it was still ''tertiary night'' therefore, wasn't prepared to come out that amount of money. What more, it was suppose to be my booze money. So after that night I was officially broke. No more shopping for me for the time being.

I haven't been broke for quite some time and wow it really sucks to be a poor man.

If I ever wanna continue with this lifestyle, I think I am really gonna need to cut down on my shopping expenses. I shop for like 4 consecutive days during my 2 weeks of holidays and for the first time in my life, I cant keep track with the items I bought. It's horrible lah.

Today is officially the 2nd day of school and I still can't adapt to it. I have been falling asleep during lectures UNKNOWINGLY which gives me a really bad neck ache. I hope I can adapt asap and start revising asap. My modules are not getting easier.

And, today my lecturer told me that our paper has been sent to various people from overseas and professors from NUS to like ''check'' it. It's something like O level but instead we have these medical people to look through the question set.

I never imagine calling someone professor. It will be so weird! I think half the time I would have thought that I am living in the wizarding world of Harry Potter. Haha.

It's getting late I gotta go get some sleep now. I will be having 2 group discussion with my group members today. So sway, I got to be the leader for my weakest Module, Pharmacology (still wondering how I obtained a B+ from common test) and then after that probably....! k-box with my classmates. Wheeeee~~~

Oh yup before I go. I am quite happy with my results except for CMbio. I fucking hate lab work or anything to do with it. So here it is...

AAP - B+
CMbio - C+
Pharm - B+
FON - A
NSL - D (haha, stupid lah. Failing practical is the worse thing in the world for a nursing student)

I am most satisfied with my AAP result which previous a D grade. I can't believe my eyes when I saw it. My hard work really paid off. Thanks to all my friends and teachers who have helped me. Ok, really gotta go zzz already. Jiayou to myself.

2011-01-04T23:05:00.001+08:00

How can any not love tumblr?

2010-12-26T02:41:00.016+08:00

Merry X'mas and Happy New Year

Life has been so far so good for me (well, at least for this holiday). I managed to find time to meet up different groups of friends which I find it rather stupid to be doing it in a week. It's been such a rush for me but anyways, it's all over now!

23rd Dec

It was suppose to be a gathering for my ex-primary school friends and I but me being me. Lazy + not sociable, I ended up asking Kailin and Lilian out only. We actually asked a couple more girls out but then they said they couldn't make it at the last minute.

I can totally understand how they few. It's kinda weird to meet out friends whom you haven't seen for years. Maybe someday somehow someone will organise something for us, ex-BLPS friends and then we will see a larger group then. I don't know.

Well, I definitely had quite a good time with Kailin and Lilian on that day. We talked about the good old times. How much our friends has changed over the years. Who used to be our good friends and best of all, teachers! Like who were felt were the prettiest teacher and all.

It was my idea to take a picture of our reflection but it was also me who later complained that we look kiddish doing it. Really!! Only 13-15 year old girls does this!

No, actually... the older girls does that too just that we are suppose to be smart enough to choose something the reflects a clearer image.

Sandwich between 2 pretty ladies. Stress!!

and... us 2 year ago~

I think I was much slimmer back then. Either that or I edited my pictures.

Again, like I always say when I meet them. They both have all the qualities a guy look for in a girl. Pretty, smart, soft-spoken, absolutely no vulgarities and has a good figure.

Why do I always have pretty girls as friends? I swear I didn't choose them. God just wanted to stress me! Ok, God won then.

Anyway, we wouldn't need to wait for another 2 long years to meet each other again. Next year, during March we will organise a mini birthday celebration for the 3 of us as our birthday is quite close to one another. I am super excited!

24th Dec

It was a planned outing for T04. We wanted to have a x'mas exchange and then just a simple gathering. Same thing happened, not everyone turned up. I guess some wasn't too keen about it? So in the end only Carel, Kelin, Linda, Agnes, Van and I turned up. (I just realised we all have English names).

First, we went to Hong Kong Cafe for lunch. I haven't been there for ages! I remember I used to go there last year until everyone complained that not only is their food expensive but is ''low grade''.

So once we settled down, cam-whore queen Linda immediately took pictures of herself. Haha. She's really good at it!

and of course not forgetting the other chio bu(s)...

Me trying to choosing my food wisely cuz I have a super duper weak stomach.

Next, we went to get ourselves x'mas hats and I bought Yami Yoghurt which I have been loving it since the day I had a taste of it.

The hats at Daiso are reallyyyyyy cheap. It's selling at $2 for 2 hats!

Trying out all the other designs...

Santa Babes!

Chill and exchange gifts @ Old Town White Coffee

Ag looks like she's being force to take a pic with me...

I think she looks better without the cardigan.

QT!

Carel's work. Very nicely folded I must say.

This so pretty and natural!

My present waiting to be present to Linda. I reused wrapping papers from my Dad's x'mas gift from his boss. Cheapo me. Eh no, eco me.

2010-12-24T04:10:00.001+08:00

It's finally my holidays now. I have been waiting for it ever since the day I overworked myself daily when I'm mugging hard for my studies. Thank god my results were good. But the thought of working like a crazy person the next term kinda frightens me. My work is getting tougher and tougher by the week.

Last term was a mad rush. We had only 5 weeks to our next attachment and everything was due on the 4th week. My friends and I were all stressed up. Assignments and projects!! Oh man... I really wonder how I managed to survive through that 5 weeks of torment.

What a way to start of the new semester!!

Then just a week ago, I went from my attachment at NUH. My ward was a pretty busy ward and I have lots of demented patients who may be cute or annoying at times. I kinda miss them now that I mention them. It's really sad to see them getting weaker and weaker each day and then forgetting things bit by bit each day.

I had a patient who was diagnosed with dementia just 6 months ago and by the 6th month she no longer recognise her family members and also can no longer talk. I can't believe such thing can happened in such a short time.

Also, she was the first patient whom I inserted the Nasogastric tube. I studied really hard for my theory part of it but when it comes to real life I find it really difficult to apply. When they say not everything is by the book, they really mean it. I finally understand what it's like now.

2010-11-27T10:07:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging for the longest time!
So I'm here to revive my dying blog with a post on...

100 random things about myself

1. I love shopping more than men
2. I have 18 skirts in my wardrobe today
3. I'm love jeggings and jeans
4. My favourite place to shop is 313 Somerset and Vivo city
5. I love sleeping with blanket covered no matter how insanely hot the weather is
6. I stole a pillow from Silk Airway years back and it's still with me today.
7. I love English even though I kinda suck at it
8. I always like to check out the books random people read
9. I spend approximately 2hrs every weekend figure out how to match my clothes for school
10. I have over about 10 pairs of leggings
11. I have 5 English dictionaries at home
12. I can't live without my organizer
13. I am not prepared for the future
14. I have 2 beanies. 1 black 1 grey
15. I have 4 pair of boots
16. My Dad calls me Dardar
17. So does my maid
18. I have 4 hamsters currently
19. I used to hate my Chinese name
20. I used to score A for MT
21. Everyday I dream about being slimmer and fairer
22. My fav cuisine is Thai
23. I haven't had a crush for 1+years now
24. My favourite movie are The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Changeling, Shutter Island and Catch me you can
25. Chinese movies make me sleepy
26. Even so, I have nothing against China
27. I think that backpack makes me look even bigger
28. We have 5 different apple products at home
29. My mum always think I love Betty Boop
30. I get angry when my things are in a mess
31. My favourite brand is Forever21
32. 40% of my clothes are from Forever 21
33. I love painting my nail cherry red
34. My favourite author is Linwood Barclay
35. My favourite perfume is Eclat D' Arpege Perfume by Lavin
36. I have been using it since the age of 15
37. I always have thoughts of going under the knife
38. I love Family Guy
39. I dislike man with moustache
40. I love biology
41. I have no best-friend
42. I have no intention of finding one anyway
43. I can look up fashion sites for hrs and then try them out myself for hrs.
44. I especially love English breakfast
45. I eat beef and it's my all time favourite meat
46. Unlike my friends, I don't really like kids. They are a nuisance
47. I have thought about being a gerontic nurse
48. I like nurse but I don't feel appreciated enough
49. My current favourite song is O.M.G by Usher and Down (acoustic ver.) by Jay Sean
50. I haven't wore heals for almost 2years now
51. I scared that the heal might break. Seriously speaking
52. but, I still wear wedges and platforms
53. At the of 14, I had the worse diarrhoea anyone can possibly imagine and I pooped in my pants. It was the worse day of my life!
54. At the age of 5, I started the habit of nail biting
55. My favourite colour is orange and red
56. I can drink less than 500mls of water in a day
57. People find it weird that I don't hydrate myself yet I still have good skin
58. 7km is the furthest I've ever jogged
59. I blush easily
60. I always keep a few alcohol swabs and plasters with me
61. I don't feel insulted when people calls me Fat
62. To me, real pretty girls are those who still looks pretty with light make-up and has no fringe (etc. Vanessa Hudgens)
64. I love wearing collar shirt
65. Furthest country I have been to is the Orlando, Florida USA
66. It was the best holiday
67. I first saw snow at the age of 4 in Japan
68. I don't really like the snow
69. I always spray perfume on my hair
70. I love being dote but I dote no one
71. To me, stuffed toys are a waste of money
72. I am a sentimental person
73. I need 2 pillows and 2 bolster when I'm sleeping
74. Everyday I need at least 7hrs of sleep
76. I was late for school once due to travel otherwise I am always punctual
77. I hate to be late because when I rush I perspire and when I get smelly and grumpy
78. In year 2008, I read a total of 14 books.
79. I can do shopping alone
80. To me, oldies are the goodies
81. I used to hate mathematics
82. I scored A for MT during PSLE
83. To me, FBT are the most unflattering pair of sport shorts
84. My dad bought a blue car when I was in primary sch because I like the colour
85. I took 1 day to complete the book, Wizard of Oz
86. I am scared shit of alien
87. In my whole 18yrs of life, I only did manicure twice
88. I've rebonded my hair 7 times since year 2006
89. I don't own any make-up kit or foundation
90. I haven't applied applied foundation on my face for years now
91. That's because I don't have the skills
92. I love watching okto on weekdays at 10pm
93. I have been brought by maid since the day I was born
94. I've worked in MacDonald's at the age of 14
95. I have never been to a concert before
96. Maybe I will got for F1 concert next year
97. I am super self concious
98. I love eating broccoli
99. This post is taking way to long to complete
100. I am addicted to twitter

2010-11-05T21:03:00.002+08:00

It's been a month

Oh my, I haven't blogged for the longest time ever. I can totally tell when I actually forgot my blogging password. Woah, so that's how long it takes for me to forget something I have been doing for years! That's err... pretty... sad? Idk.

Anyway, of course I haven't been enjoying quite much these days. If I am enjoying, I would have easily remembered to blog about it. I am struggling very much for studies these days. My modules just got tougher by at least 30-40% as compared to the last semester. Damn, it's so depressing especially after telling myself that ''Yes Debra you are gonna work hard this semester and achieve a more desirable GPA!" FML seriously.

By now, I guess all my friends know how crazy I am about the clothes I wear and how I portray myself. Oh and... my ''addiction'' just got worse. I have the weirdest habit of planning my clothes 1 week before hand. That means, setting aside 2hrs every weekend, just doing nothing but trying out my clothes and choosing my accessories.

So today, being public holiday I planned my clothes earlier by a day and after it's all done. I just can't put my mind away from it. I find myself constantly doing research online and trying myself to improve my outfit and make it as prefect as possible. It's crazy lah. I don't know what is happening to me.

Then, last Friday I wore a black bandage skirt + a white tank top blouse with a ribbon +cardigan. I thought I looked fine and then when I saw my reflection at the toilet a couple of times, I thought I should just go bang the wall and die. It's horrible. First of all, it got crumpled after I tired it on multiple times (during my weekend planning). Secondly, I feel that I am too old for it.

So after that I went to shop around vivo city to replace the ugly blouse I wore and in the end I bought a chiffon long sleeve blouse which cost me $45. The amt I pay to make me happy again on a Friday night.

Speaking of which, we didn't really had a great night at St. James Powerhouse. I didn't like the songs played that night but overall it wasn't too bad considering the free entry privilege we had.

Zzz I'm bored already don't want go on with this post already. Probably blog again as I'm going to Marina Barrage on Sunday like I always say, I hope I can take some good pictures!

2010-10-04T22:25:00.006+08:00

Day 1 @ NUH

The title of this post reminds me of the first day I worked as a ward controller at NUH. The good old days. I'm always missing my ex-colleague and the good old times we spent together at work. Anyway, the job has finally came to an end. It's no wonder why my supervisor haven't been calling me. Sad, where else can I find such job with so high pay?

Today is actually my first day for attachment and now it's down to 14 days. How quick! It will all be over before I know it. We didn't did much today because it was sort of like an orientation day where we were brought around the hospital to all the different places which of course didn't quite benefit me since I've already been working there but yes still some ''important feathers'' that I get to see first hand like all the specials room etc. x-ray and stuff and I didn't know there's a Nurse Manager room in each ward. Now, that's new to me.

My CI has been really good to us. She didn't sound like one of those strict CI's my lecturer has mention. I hope I will have an enjoyable time during attachment. Speaking of which, I only obtain a miserable C+ for my nursing skills which saddens me. I work really hard for 2nd term practical but because I slacked too much for term 1 everything has been ''pulled down''. That's just me. I only work my ass off once or twice a year (during the 2 major exams). Trying to change my attitude but it's difficult...

Pictures from Sheesha night has been up on facebook and I pick a few of my fav. to post it up...

Kbox @ Marina

Sheesha @ Haji Lane

I edited this photo and I really like it!

Good luck to myself for attachment tomorrow and the ordeal begins

2010-10-03T16:03:00.004+08:00

Today, I kiss goodbye to my holiday

First things first, I'm a little late here but I am going to welcome this brand new month of October with open arms. The month of September has been a pretty good one for me. I have no other words to describe it other then using the commonly used term, TTM. I enjoyed this 3weeks long holiday TTM.

Strangely enough, this month, I happened to try out things that I've never did before in my life. One is of course clubbing the other is Sheesha. Sheesha is not my kinda of thing I just don't like the fact that I'm inhaling harm stuff which goes through my body. It sucks. It's already bad that I'm constantly feeding myself with junk food and if I do more harm to my body I will feel damn bad. It's like abusing the most precious thing my dear parents gave to me.

So anyway, Sheesha is even more harmful than smoking. Here's a list of harmful effect that I read online...

• Sheesha smoke contains high levels of chemicals and poisons, including carbon monoxide, tar and heavy metals.

• Many of these chemicals are known to cause mouth and lung cancers, heart disease, respiratory and other diseases.

• Even though it has passed through water, the levels of toxins in sheesha smoke can be as high or higher than in cigarette smoke.

• Water-pipe smokers may absorb higher concentrations of these chemicals because of higher concentrations in the smoke itself, or because they may smoke for several hours at a time and may inhale moisturized, less irritating smoke more deeply.

• In a sheesha session lasting 60 minutes, a smoker can inhale as much smoke as a cigarette smoker would inhale from 100 – 200 cigarettes.

Using a waterpipe to smoke tobacco is NOT a safe alternative to cigarette smoking.

I don't deny that it's quite good place to chill but of course, even a choice I would very much prefer to go to clubs and have alcohol instead of beer. There is something about beer that I had. The smell just don't seem right and worse still, the foam remind me of saliva it's disgusting! Each of us had 2 bottles of beer that night but I only drank 2-3 slips of it and then gave it to Keith and Ken. So I ended up drinking a cup of ice water and coke.

Oh and I forgot to mention about the movie we watched that day. It's called The Switch and it should be called Guaranteed The Suckiest Movie In Month Of October. I guess the new title I named is enough to explain how much I dislike that stupid movie. I will rate it 2/5.

I will be going to for my attachment tomorrow. I kinda look forward to it. I have been doing nothing at home for soooo long and now I can finally make full use of my time. I will be working at WD57. Which is the busiest and I'm sure time will pass v quickly and 3weeks will be gone v soon. And then a new semester begins...

How fast time flies. 1/2 year has gone by... Guess I'm no longer a freshie at NP

2010-10-03T15:59:00.003+08:00

2010-09-27T03:12:00.004+08:00

For the past 2 hours...

I have been thinking about changing my old boring hairstyle. I am really sick of my long straight hair and then curly on top. It sucks! I have been doing all I can to conceal the frizzy hair all these years and I am sick of it!!! I don't really know what I should do with it now. Embrace my curls and appreciate what I have naturally?

Of course I do have thoughts about having my curls back again but it will then take a really long time for it to grow to my current hair length. Also, it will be very ugly with curls on top and then straight at mid length. And usually, I get my hair rebonded once my curly hair is visible at about like 6cm. Which is pretty bad for the hair that is why I don't feel like further damaging it again.

Right now I feel like going to a hair salon tomorrow and then consult a hairdresser asking them about what exactly I can do with my hair with the problem I'm facing right now and then maybe change a hairstlye?

Speaking of which, I haven't had a haircut (alone) for quite sometime now. Years at least because usually for me, hair cut = rebonding and I used to rebond my hair once a year and now it's become a biannual thing so the condition of my hair is quite bad now and it's getting thinner and thinner. Sad...

Apart from my hair, I have another ''hair issue'' which is my EYEBROW. I just had it trimmed few days back and it was a little too thin for my fat face causing my big fat face to be even bigger plus my hair is already so bad looking and the ultra fat face is not helping either.

When I looking through the album from last night I thought I could die from being fat and ugly. Seriously, I have some fucking big self esteem issue man!! Fuck... I need a change!!! Or maybe just go on a strict diet for the rest of my life. Or maybe just go kill myself. Sometimes, I do feel that my self esteem issue has taken over my personality. Therefore, according to my stupid theory, I have a fatty personality.

I begin to wonder, the reason why I haven't had a crush for almost a year now could be because I feel that I don't have the ''right'' to fall for any one. Like, I am too fat and ugly for any men in this world and no one in the right mind would want me. No wait... I should say, no one in the right mind would want a girl who has lacks confidence. Fuck! I am so fucked up in the mind. Argh!!!

I should now proceed to happier things that happened last night. It's the 2nd time that I went clubbing and I enjoyed myself but music wise I prefer St. James Power House then Zouk because dancing without shouting out the lyrics doesn't seem complete. As for $$, Zouk is much more expensive. I spent 3 times the amount of cash compared to Power House, also because he had to pay an entrance fee for $35. For booze, I preferred Martell then Johnnie Walker.

We had Martell while we were at Zouk and I only had 3 cups of it plus another 2 complementary drinks and I already felt lightheaded and was ready go hit the dance floor and show off my ugly dance move but it felt great!! Boozing and dancing is the best mix!

Here are a few pictures from last night.

The only pic of myself which I'm satisfied. (Ps, Peg don't look nice here)
See how it how my head is nicely angled in such a way that it doesn't show the curly part of my hair and my thin brows.

Sy doing her thing while Peg getting high

High... very high.

So am I.

How I wish every day was like last night. I want to be carefree and fuck care about how the world feels and sees me as a person. I wished I had the confidence I had when I was at the dance floor intoxicated. I wish I wish I wish but it will never happen. I guess this concludes why I enjoy going to clubs.

2010-09-20T00:31:00.008+08:00

Dancing sure is tiring...

An hour ago I was showing my Bro how I ''danced'' last Friday night. His comment, ''wah, you really dance like a fat person...'' Frankly speaking, I'm not sad but it's just that I am sick of being described is fat! I need what people call... VARIETY. I know I am fat but does very thing I do have to associate with that three letters? Why not use words like CLUMSY? Doesn't it sound more appropriate when describing a dance move?

And if someone have yet to see how a fat person shake his or her bon bon I'm more then willing to show them some ugly moves. Well, of course there are still fat people who have some nice dance move and I am just the unlucky few (''few'' or majority. I don't know).

That little comment from my bro is not gonna dampen my spirit! This coming Saturday I am going to St. James for the 2nd time and have some fun. I'm still young! I don't live for anyone but myself so why make myself suffer and restrain myself from doing things I feel that fat people shouldn't be doing? (haha, I wished I always feel this way about myself).

So here are more pictures from Friday night...

Engross with all the brainless stupid games on my iPod

Probably the only picture that shows a little more skin from my thighs. I haven't been wearing dress for months and it feel weird to wear them. It's going inconvenient. And of course the very cute shuwei looking at the camera...

Shuwei and I with my spare tyres.

I'm pretty excited about 25th. I'm sure we are going to have a crazyyyy night. I'm looking forward to it!!! I am going to fully charge myself on the 24th...

2010-09-19T02:51:00.007+08:00

There goes a precious week of my holiday...

Damn, sometimes I feel that time literally flies when you are having fun or just spending some time relaxing and watching some videos on youtube. The week has been a pretty laid back one. Next week I am going to spend my time wisely (say only! I haven't thought about what I can do with the extra time. I only on standby for work).

I think I've also lost interest in blogging. In fact, I lost interest in quite a no. of stuff I have been watching tv quite a bit recently esp ever since the drama Tayong Dalawa aka The Two of Us was on channel 5. It a Philippine drama I don't know what exactly caught my attention but I thought I should give it a try.

So anyway, I finally did some over that I never had the courage to try which is.... CLUBBING. I clubbed for the first time with Holys (girls), Minhui and co. and along with some other of their friends which made up a whopping 17 of us. It's crazy. I didn't quite talk to the other friends who were with us.

I don't know but I seriously find it pretty hard to talk to a total stranger whether girl or guy. Which is a serious problem that a lot of people have been telling me about. I find it superrrrrr duperrrrr hard to open up. Even if it means merely saying, ''Hi, I'm Debra. Nice to meet you''

I remember once when Yb jie introduced to me one of her colleague. He introduced himself to me and then hold out his hand. I just stared blankly and smile stupidly and then Yb jie had to lift up my hands so we could shake hands. It was so embarrassing and on top of that she had to remind me to introduce myself to him too. Wakao, he must have thought I am the stupidest person in the whole wide world.

Really, I gotta learn to speak up to people and learn to make new friends.

So about my first clubbing experience... We went to St. James Powerhouse. The place looked exactly like what it's like on tv. Really dark and with neon lights. OH! And not forgetting about the weird stench at some areas of the club. Apparently, it was the smell of puke from previous clubber the day before. It's smelled quite bad!

We were there quite early because we had to be in time for the 1 for 1 Liquor thingy and also free entry for student. Yb jie told me it was tertiary night so it's free for all students! Once we got there I was bored to death... We had to wait for the DJ who came in at about 11:30pm and we had to wait for an hour. Me being me again, I played the games on my iPod to kill time which made me appear even more anti-social.

(one way to make me start talking to the people around me is to ditch my iPod. Even my poly friends says I spend too much time on it)

Once the Dj came, the music blast reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy loudly and I swear I was kinda irritated by it at first and then xinyi suggested to go to the dance floor and ''try to blend in and dance'' which I was very reluctant to do so (seriously, at that point of time I begin to question myself why the fuck did I agreed to come)

When we got to the dance floor, I saw........... my dearest cousin Yb jie. Walao, the world is so fucking small. She was just right beside dancing really sexily with all her super hot friends. I feel homed when I saw her! Every where becomes a friendly place when there's a family member around. So she taught me how to dance a little and then she laughed at me when my way of dance = bending of the knees. Then I started swaying in the stiffest and most awkward way, almost like a robot. And then slowly, I got better when she guide me along...

It was kinda funny when I saw xinyi and sheeyee dance. I don't know but because we used to be band members and it's very unlikely to see us in very ''wild and vigorous movement'' so I kept giggling as we dance. Superrr noob.

Oh and after that night, I truly understand the term GRIND. I understand that I have a big surface area therefore it's hard to avoid getting in contact with other people. Aiya but when you get to such places you gotta prepared for such things.

Xin also saw some of her friends there at the dance floor who was also from NP. He was with a bunch of other guys too. And then I don't why they suddenly formed a circle around us and then dance around. (I even looked up google to find things like clubbing etiquettes and stuff like that but nothing seem to say that once you spot a familiar face in the club start forming a circle and dance like you know each other for years). But still, it was kinda fun. Everyone there was really crazy and when Lady Gaga's song was played I thought it felt like we just came out from the madhouse.

When the rest came and join us they brought us to the ''upper part of the dance floor'' I don't know what it is called but it's like at the peak where everyone can us dance. I felt super comfortable but still joined them nonetheless. Wah, come to thinking of it I really wonder how did I muster that much courage to get up there man. I have low-self esteem and zero confidence why did I even do that?! Maybe because it was quite dark there so I just thought about having fun and making the best out of the $$ I spent there since I didn't drank much and thought I had to make the best out of my $23.

So that's about it! I saw quite a number of plus size girls and we are definitely the minorities. One thing I like about yesterday is because J felt that my confidence level kinda increased when I was trying my best to dance and blend in. It felt great lar! But it was for that point of time only. Now I feel that I am again super self-conscious, fat and ugly. Hai... and the worse part is... I don't feel sad about it any more I am used to it!

My bro even asked this question once, ''Idiot and Fat. Which one do you feel more insulted'' My answer: Idiot. But it also depends who's asking lar. If a 100kg person going to insult me and call me fat walao eh I am obviously gonna need to abuse him in some form man! But at the same time I kinda admire the confidence he have. Fat person called another fat person fat... Really, not easy.

So here's the one and only picture I took from that night.

It's already 4am in the morning!! I need to sleep and then wake up at 1pm to catch Tayong Dalawa.

(I haven't been checking for any spelling errors and stuff on my blog post recently. Hope I don't make too many mistakes)

2010-09-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

I'm FREE from exams!

It's been again quite some time since I last blogged. Lots of things going on in my life the past 2-3days. I went shopping with Van and Ag and then just now with Xin. I haven't been shopping for awhile now and I thought I would have lost touch by the time I go shopping but no. I got even crazier.

I don't know what's up with my these days but I've been looking at clothes that I don't really dare to wear etc one shoulder dress and sleeveless blouse. Van and Ag says I look weird in them not only because I have the arm the size of an elephant leg but also because it's much much fairer than my forearm which Van says brings even more attention to it.

Damn, it's sad. I'm already fat and now my ''fair-ness'' is ''preventing'' me to wear such clothes! Zzzz We went shopping right after our last paper which was a grave mistake. We were all so tried and wasn't really in the mood for shopping but nonetheless I still got myself a really nice pair of gladiator (yes! after much deliberation I finally got a pair myself. Fuck care that humongous calf of mine already) and my 3rd blazer. I bought a lighter shade one. I now have a darker shade of denim a lighter shade of denim and a black blazer. And just when I thought I had everything fashion sites keep showing me the goodness of having a white blazer FML

The clothes there at Bugis are still about the same. I think I should only go there once every 2-3 months. Not too frequent unless I'm getting some casual wear for school.

Anyway, I'm quite happy that the exams are now over. I don't have to recite my notes before I sleep or wake up earlier in the morning to study my notes or study them during the endless bus ride to school. Speaking of which, Bukit Timah Rd is undergoing some major transformation which actually created some massive jam every now and then. I'm so pissed. I thought I found the best traffic-jamless to school and then this shit came. Mummy told me that it would take about 5yrs to complete FML.

About the exams... I just hope I will get at least a D for all modules. The thing about me is, I never ever try to aim far. It's bad it's so bad that Van told me that I should sign bond and be a full fledged nurse after I graduate cuz I never aim for any shit in life. I take everyday as it comes. I don't plan ahead. That's because I never want to be disappointed.

But saying that I don't plan ahead is also not quite true. I plan my outfits 1 week ahead. It's a super bad habit of mine that I nurtured every since I got into poly. I can't afford to choose my clothes on the spot and then live home. I'll get very paranoid for the whole day. I would rather be overdressed then underdressed and then now I realise that I got worse.

No, actually it's because of the weather. I feel that I need to plan 2 outfit for the day 1 for hotter weather and another for colder weather. The weather in Singapore is really unpredictable! It can be sunny Singapore now and then thunderstorm raining cats and dogs and then when it rains, I face my biggest fear. I don't want to get drench in the rain. I don't want my notes to get wet and then ink smudge and gets into my bag and worse of all getting my shoe wet.

I got my shoe (my fav ''straw'' shoe from Cotton On) countless times and it pains me each time it gets wet because it's really my favourite pair and each time it get soaked, I had to ask Jiejie Cat to wash it for me which I'm already might worn out even faster.

I should say no more about my shoes and clothes. I think I can go on forever... but... one more thing. My wardrobe is overflowing. I don't know what to do with my clothes. I have thought about giving them away but the thing about me is that I hate it when some one looks better than I am in MY clothes. (which is very likely) still thinking ah...

Will be celebrating xuanle's birthday tomorrow at Settlers Cafe! I'm so excited. I can't wait to take pretty pictures of them all and I kinda hate to take pictures of myself. The more pictures I see myself the more flaws I spot that is why I blogged the tagged photos on facebook again. Damn, there's really a fucking big problem with my confidence level man!

Before I go... a BIG thank you to my Yan Ag and Van for being so sweet and all for the last school semester. It's a pleasure knowing you guys. Thanks for helping the very stupid me in every way and tahan all my nonsense. I do hope we can be friends forever and ever.

2010-08-29T16:30:00.011+08:00

I wished someone would be a little more considerate

Giving my a little time off now with a quick update of my Genting Trip that happened just last week. It wasn't quite a fun and exciting trip I must admit but we sure had lost of good food for the past 4 days. I ate like a pig and now I find it so hard to bring back my ''birdy appetite''. I'm saying birdy because sometimes when Daddy looks at my serving of food (rice esp) he laughed and said ''what is that? bird food?''

Genting Day 1

We checked in to Resort World Hotel. It's my first time there and I was really excited. The view from our hotel room was fantastic and I really need to thank Yb jie Godma for it. She exchanged points and got us 2 hotel rooms.

The advantage of having full length mirror!

After we settled our barang barang in the hotel room we went downstairs and did my favourite thing in the world. SHOPPING!!

The shop that I will never miss when I'm at Genting.

I don't remember what we did that that besides shopping but one thing I know for sure is every night I read my notes before I slept. That sucks!

Studying Psychology. My weakest...

Genting Day 2

We took a cable car down and then change to a bus just to get to KL. Again, cable car ride was FOC as Yb jie Godma had some points which allows her to change for lots of free stuff up there at Genting.

I had sweaty palms when I was up there

45 Degrees. I wonder how they did it!

Yb jie's Godma brought us to some really wu lu place to have breakfast. I felt so homesick at that time. I just can't stand the sight of corroded buildings, dirty puddle of water etc. the list goes on and what I was afraid of the most was that whether of not the food gives me diarrhea.

I have a weak stomach and the slightest uncooked food can make me lao sai like mad. So I ate really little and ended up eating stuff like veg and tofu the fish wasn't fully cooked but the food there was quite good.

After our breakfast we walked over to Time Square Shopping Mall. The place is massive! 10 level in total! I thought they can just park me there for the next week until I saw....

WTF? This is so ugly.

The shop looks very much like Aries but only the price of some items are so ridicules that when I saw it I immediately fucked out of the place. One stupid fake ugly necklace actually cost 89RM.

My first time eating sneakers ice cream. It was really good! But a little pricey.

I bought quite a bit that day but mostly everyday stuff like flip-flops, facial wash, shirt and some hair accessories. I only spent about 200RM in about 4-5hrs? Not too bad. After that we went back up to Genting and I bought a couple of pretty hair clips that I doubt I will ever wear it but it was cheap. Like 3 for 10RM.

Genting Day 3

I think I failed my camera. The pictures of the food were really badly taken!

That afternoon, we went down to some temple.

I love her Denim Jacket!

I love the pictures we took there. The weather and the scenery was very nice!

Genting Day 4

I am kinda sick of Genting now. Wouldn't be going there again unless if I'm going with my friends

2010-08-28T17:36:00.008+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog for quite some time. I have been quite busy with my schoolwork for the past few weeks and even if I had the free time I would rather watch the YOG. Never knew I'd enjoy such stuff. I manged to watch the Gymnastics, Diving, Volleyball, Soccer and my personal favorite TABLE TENNIS. Isabelle Li did a great job and sure made Singapore proud. Anyway, I still think she is a PRC. No offense but I had a new found respect for them.

I finally bought a SD card reader but it's not only a SD card reader it can read so many other different cards which some are pretty useless like sim card. Who needs it? And so... here are the pictures taken during Peijuan's Birthday celebration at Justacia @ Marina. It was a really simple birthday celebration. About 15 ppl in total. I don't even know half of the people there but because the birthday girl didn't had the time so we had to have the birthday celebration together with her other friends.

Beautiful Birthday Girl
(so pretty but don't understand why she doesn't like to take pictures)

Birthday Girl with the boys

with the girls...

now with have to S-S members with ultra short and sexy hairstyle

We each took individual photos with the star that night...

BFF

This is my first time holding a birthday balloon!

After the dinner at Justacia (anyway, food there isn't THAT good. I think they are popular because of the free flow of drinks and ice-cream but the hot chocolate was quite tasty!) We then walked around Marina Square after I don't know why we landed at the arcade area and then we spent the rest of the time there.

Peg Sandy and Sy actually completed this game with a little help here and there.

Engross!

After the game, we sat outside the area and waited for time to pass. I took a couple pictures of my lovely friends and I am pretty satisfied with it myself.

Sz with her new haircut. I love her sideburns!

Photogenic princess!

Peg and I

My face looks tone looks 10x lighter than the actual. I don't know why but I love it!

Ending the post with a natural candid pic of the crazy girls....

2010-08-18T13:28:00.005+08:00

I will be going off for a short trip to Genting from 19-22 Aug. I look forward to the weather there. The weather is so unpredictable in Singapore! This time round I've armed myself with enough clothes I hope I don't catch a cold like the other time and I'm bringing accessories and clothes that I never dared to wear in Singapore.

Ending my post here. I am going to be electric-less for the next 2hrs cuz there's some maintenance going on for the whole block today. Thank god it's raining. I'm going back to pack my stuff and do some revision.

ps. I can't upload my pictures from yesterday. I don't know whr did the micro SD card went to. Hai...

2010-08-18T12:23:00.008+08:00

Probably the worst movie review you ever read...

So I just watched a movie called Love in Disguise. I thought it was some hindi movie at first because GV didnt provide any pictures for my GV app on my touch. Little did I know that it was actually a movie starring Wang Lee Hom (probably one of the most charming mandopop ever!!). I didn't saw the trailer myself. It was kinda last minute thing but Ag actually gave me a rough ideal about the movie. I thought it was quite interesting.

Then, I told Peg to get me my tickets too. At the first minute when the movie was played I was already mesmerized by Leehom's good looks. And then when the movie played on, I was horrified by the bad acting skills. It was so bad that I wish the movie was playing Leehom's concert instead. Well, at least I wouldn't have to see him in ridiculous outfit.

So if anyone thinks that he/she will be watching lots of nice scenes with Leehom's handsome face, you are wrong! The above few pictures are what we get to see of him for at least 65% of the whole movie but still!! This whole new character is rather cute and interesting. His name is Mohamo-de. Similar to a Malay name Mohamad only with hint of Chinese at the end of it.

Apart from the bad acting, the animation didn't helped a single bit. Yes, I would be fascinated by the stupid/childish animation if I saw the movie when I was 8yrs old. We have all watched Avatar and they definitely set some good standard for the world of animation. Of course, I don't mean to say that I wished the animation was as good as Avatar's but it was really bad I must say.

You make me wanna say... oh-oh, oh-my-gosh~

I would rate this movie a 6.5/10. If it wasn't for Wang Lee Hom it would have been a 5/10. I swear, the guy good looks managed to ''salvage'' the whole movie like crazy!

Here's a MV of Wang Lee Hom with different looks and is super duper handsome.

Conclusion: Wang Lee Hom should never give acting a 2nd attempt anymore.

Apart from this the bad movie Love in Disguise, I also had a very bad experience with our very own local movie PCK the Movie. It was so lame that I fell asleep at the supposedly ''climax'' of the movie. I couldn't take it. I tried hard not to fall asleep and laugh at the jokes they call jokes.

When I saw Henry Thia and PCK chasing round and about I almost wanted to cry out loud for the $8 I paid for the movie. I would rather watch Inception for the second time.

Anyway, that is my way of supporting local movie. Ysabel is right. Supporting it doesn't mean to have to like it. I, myself would rate it a 5/10.

I will still continue to support local movie because if we don't, who else will?

2010-08-14T16:34:00.003+08:00

Last week has been a great one for me and I guess for the whole of P08 too. We had 2 practicals last week. AAP and NSL. Aap was okay I think I will be able to pass but not too confident about my spelling but I passed my NSL!! So happy but I did little mistakes here and there. Like handling the bandage... but overall I thought it was quite ok.

So now, 1 module down and 4 more to go. I hope I don't have to retake any of it the next semester. Gonna need to put in a little more effort now. More and more people are putting the words SLACK and Debra together already. It's terrible. I bo-chap too much.

and here are even more pictures of my little friends...

@ 4 days old

@ 6 days old

Nala and Mama
(I have finally decided to name Rex's sister - Nala)

Rex

Rex's house

While I was on my way to school on Tue I saw YZ. It was a prefect timing because he had years of experience with hamsters himself. So I asked him about some hamster necessities and also about where and how to sell my hamsters. So he told me about a website called 88DB.

That night, I went home to check out the website myself and I swear my heart melted at the sight of little furry animals. I want to have them all!! I saved a couple of pictures to upload on my blog and these are also my favorite few.

Some of the things are sold at a really low price. Like $10 for a fish tank and $3 for a hamster. Dirt cheap!!

I haven't put up my hamsters picture on that web yet. I will probably put it up for sale when it's 3-4weeks old.

2010-08-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

It's yet another boring Tuesday for me. I don't know what it is about Tuesdays. During school days I have 4 hours of lectures and even now during the holiday I find myself studying the same old stuff. Anatomy and Physiology! I have been trying so hard to install some information to my head but nothing much seems to get in. I don't know why. I guess I am sick of it? Esp after the last paper I had on Friday. It was a killer.

We all thought that it will a easy peasy MCQ and 2 qns of SAQ but we were all wrong. It was a bloody cloze passage paper. I got a shock of my life at the sight of it. In my heart I only told myself one thing. GG.

Sk even told the rest ''you all cfm die. no MCQ. hahahahaha!" really die.

I don't feel like studying anymore but I need to. Is it a good idea to force myself to study? Really, no mood at all. No mood for anything right now. I just feel like sitting back and dream about the different outfits I can wear to Genting.

Speaking of clothes, my wardrobe is again overflowing. I have been shopping a lot lately but they are all really good buys. I bought lots of different clothes (etc. peasant skirt, ribbon blouse, beanie, shades and chiffon blouse (always find it a bit too mature for my age). And on top of that I bought 3 cardigans. Ok, to tell the truth I kinda regretted it cause I still like my boyfriend cardigan that I got. Stupid mistake but you never know. Sometime such mistakes is a good mistake. You never know when you will need it. Just have to wait!

I must control myself and not shop this weekend. I need to save some money for my Malaysia trip. Yb jie said that we are going for shopping there. It's crazy. Ok, after my Malaysia Trip I am NOT going to shop for at least a month. I swear to God. Oh, and I am also not going to touch any liquor. No Vodka for me! I swear!!

Hai... should waste any more time. I actually wanted to send some songs over to my hp and then I don't know why I kinda automatically signed in to blogger and wah-lah I wasted even more time.

Rex with a little furry toy.
Pity that little Robo. He has no companion so I threw in my furry keychain that Lili got me years ago. And even his toy is bigger than him!

Mama Robo

and this is the song I've been listening all day. Broken by Sezairi Sezali

2010-08-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

Sunshines are out at Sentosa now. Wish I can join them but I've got 2 very important practical coming up next week. I can't score too badly for it because I heard that the best and the worse 3 from each tutorial group will be reshuffled to another class. I am already so anti-social how am I going to survive such shit.

Apart from my 2 major practical exams, I am more or less quite free this week. I need to spend more time revising my weaker subjects. Speaking of weaker subjects, my PAS result is out. I got 80% from the retest and I swear to God, I put almost 0 effort on it. Why is it always like that? The things that I put my heart and soul with always gives me shitty results whereas things that I don't give a fuck has the result I least expect. It kinda frustrates me sometimes...

Anyway, I will be away from 19-22 Aug. Will be going for a short trip to Genting and KL with Yb jie's Godma and Mum. May not be going to the theme park this time round. We are just there to chill and do some shopping (which I think it's impossible cuz there isn't much thing to shop there). But one thing I'm gonna do for sure is keep my mouth busy with chewing gum.

Shouldn't waste any more time. Time to do some revision and... Happy Birthday Singapore and my newborn hamsters!

2010-08-09T14:19:00.004+08:00

An hour ago I receive a really bad news. My hamster just gave birth for the 2nd time! I really don't know what to do now. My 21 days old hamster - Rex actually fucked his mother. How is that possible? He is still a baby! Unless Mr Nacho escaped from his cage in the middle of the night and then do some dirty things.

Anyway, this new set of pups is my 2nd batch of robo and it's incest which will various sources say will have a very short life span and may be deformed too. It's terrible.

I'm giving my baby Rex away to Sandy and I'm keeping the female one from the first batch. I haven't thought of a name for her yet. I got six other nameless hamsters now. Breeding hamster is not an easy job really.

My plan now is to keep Nacho, Tin tin and a baby then give the rest of it away. If it's possible, I want to give them a pet shop and other people who are keen in having robo as pets. *Fingers crossed*

I have ten mouths to feed now.

Mr Nacho
(Don't know what is wrong with him these days. His fur is not as nice a before. Esp after I separate him from the love of his life).

Baby Rex from the 1st batch. Super cute but fierce

Mummy Ham with newborn pups underneath her.

2010-08-08T17:59:00.004+08:00

So the tough week has finally came to an end. It's been yet another hectic week for me. More than happy that it's all over now but yet I ended it off quite badly. I got very drunk last night (again, countless times). But last night was the worse night I've ever had and I think I am going to give up drinking for now.

I only had one meal in the afternoon yesterday before I head down to Sentosa to meet my classmates and then only get some tidbit and soft drinks. That was just about what I had for the whole day. One ''proper'' meal and junk food.

Speaking of Sentosa, frankly speaking it wasn't quite as enjoyable but then it was still quite decent considering that this was out first class outing. No regrets joining them. They took a couple of pictures and me being me again. I'm too lazy to upload any more than 10pics.

Hidayah tried to pull into the sea.

Not being a good sport. I didn't want to soak myself in the water yesterday for very vain purpose.
1. I don't want to destroy my hair.
2. I don't want a tan.
3. I didn't want to get my clothes wet and then carry a heavy bag which again may dirty my bag.

What I'm trying to say here is, I didn't like the idea of going to Sentosa in the very beginning.

Van says I always act cute. Life is short. Act cute now when you still can afford to!

The 2 chio bu(s) from T04.

Kuching babe

I think the part I like most about the outing is when I played with Dr Al's little girl and the twister game. First time playing that game. We had so much fun. All the funny position really made us laugh out loud. I feel like getting a map myself and then play it with sunshines. Soon soon...

So after we bathe and changed, some people left the place while the rest of us brought the PRCs around Sentosa. Hidayah showed them around and seriously, I myself was quite impress with the changes in Sentosa. I haven't been there for 1-2yrs and it made some great drastic changes.

After bringing them to the ''free entry'' attractions we left and and when to Vivo for dinner and then walked around again. I bought myself a very nice and simple necklace from forever21. Seriously I've never stop shopping before. I go shopping almost every week without fail. Terrible. I wanna try to give shopping a break for now. Really, I have a great big problem I think I am symptoms of a Shopaholic.

Anyway, Ag Van Yan Christine and I left VivoCity at about 9:20pm. We had a great time talking in during the train ride home.

After that I went to Jurong Point to meet sunshine for a movie - Salt. The movie was fantastic. Angelina Jolie is gorgeous and some scenes were rather impressive. I'll rate it 4/5 myself.

After the movie we walked over to Sandy's house for a drink. She bought a rose flavored Vodka the other time and didn't like the taste of it so we helped with it. I had a bet with Ken and Keith and sadly I lost the bet and losing meand getting drunk and then treat the winner a meal. It was the craziest bet I ever had. Totally regret for being to ''on''

So a bet is a bet I knew drinking with an empty stomach will make me puke like a merlion so before heading to Sandy's house we grabbed a few packets of tidbit and I ate while walking to Sandy's house.

and it didn't help a single bit. This time, I drank 4 shots of vodka and about 3 cups of vodka mixed with 7-up. I had a funny feeling when I drank it but still went on. Stupid me. Puked countless times yesterday night. I had puke on my clothes hair and body. It stinksssssss.... really thanks to my dear sunshines for helping me out. Love you guys.

My puke tasted like shit. It was cheese + Alcohol + 7-up. It sucks! (ok, but to tell the truth I'm glad that I puke the junk food out today I don't want that shit in my body).

Don't really know what exactly happened but I knew we took a cab home and for the first fucking time Ken send me home! Lol, cui diao lah. 10 years of friendship and last night was the first time he sent me home.

Went home and quckily change into some clean clothes and slept throughout like 11hrs but I am still feel a little dizzy right now. Hai...

So that's about my crazy Saturday night. Totally regret getting drunk because I can't do my revision. I waste another day sleeping. But!! Getting drunk is really a way to test our friendship I really do feel that my dear sunshine do care for one another. Love you so much~ May our friendship last till the end of time.

2010-08-03T21:33:00.002+08:00

Day 2

I didn't had the mood to study today. I tried to force myself but nothing seem to get into my head. I don't know what I should do and worse of all, I fine myself get distracted easily by my hamsters especially now when it's already big enough to be handled. I had a great time playing with Rex and Buzz (my baby hamster name).

Anyway, I tried checking out the gender but it's so tiny but one of them was clearly a male. For the other, I thought was a male too but Jiejie Cat says it's a female. My plans now are to wait till my hamsters is a month old and then I will separate the male baby from their mum. But if two babies are male, I will need to put both with their fathers that means 3 hamsters in a cage and the mother is alone. Hai... quite sad.

Hamsters aside. School has been really tiring. I had a hard time keeping myself awake during the 4hrs lecture today. I pray that there wouldn't be such arrangement for the next semester. And then after our lecture we had practical. Lots of ''brain work'' not that the rest are brainless but the lectures and practical today requires more brain work.

NSL theory paper tomorrow. I have zero confidence. I have no fucking idea how it is going to be like. Our teacher didn't even gave us a rough ideal. All she said was ''it's all on the powerpoint'' Wakao... Isn't every fucking thing on the powerpoint? And that was the closest ''hint'' we got from her. FML big time!!!!

and then today while we were having our practical, I asked her for a sticky label (which is part of my requisites) she told me... ''didn't I gave it to you last lesson?'' _l_

That's the stupidest answer I ever heard. We already used up the labels from last lesson and who the fuck keeps the stupid cheap sticky label? We were all really pissed off. I mean, if that's the answer we get from every practical. Tell me, why the fuck do we pay school fees for? Actually this kinda stuff happened quite a number of times during lesson already but sometimes it's so bad that I really doubt it's her PMS acting up.

Ok, no point talking about this anymore. I should spend more time on my revision.

2010-08-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

Ahh... kill me

I have been revising my school work since 4pm and it seems never ending. I've been a bad girl today. I skipped 2 lectures just to come home and prepare for my coming mock exams. Bad girl but for good cause. No regrets coming home earlier because I really needed the time for my own revision. I wish I can do the same for tomorrow but they are really important lectures that I can't afford to give it a pass.

I am sooooo tired now and it's only Monday. So much more revision to do. How I wish there is more than 24hrs in a day.

So here's my schedule for the next 4 torturous days

Tuesday - School ends at 4pm but there is mock test for practical and I very bad with hands on stuff.

Wednesday - NSL theory paper and then psychology and sociology remedial in the evening till 8pm and then right after that will be going to Jurong Point to celebrate Peg's 18 birthday.

Thursday - MIC theory paper (mock test)

Friday - AAP theory paper.

Saturday - Class outing to Sentosa and celebrating Peg's birthday after that.

So busy that I even forgot that I haven't had my dinner today. Crash diet. Well, at least it's also a kind of effort to lose weight. Ok, should waste any more time. My 15mins break is over. FML

2010-08-01T03:27:00.001+08:00

Lots of error on the previous post. iPod wouldn't allow me to edit on blogger.com. And my English standard is getting from bad to worse I find myself using the same few words. Sad...

Ok, I should really start doing my revision.

Sent from my iPod

2010-08-01T03:17:00.001+08:00

Thought I should update my blog now since I have some free time. It's been a very very very hectic week for me. I'm more than happy that it's all over but next week will be worse. 3 test and endless mock test for practical.

At least there's something to look forward to! The YOG break is coming real soon! Thank god Singapore hosted it. If not I really wonder how I am going to make it through this tough period.

My main purpose here today is to blog about the movies I watched recently. One of which is of course Inception. Everyone should catch that movie. It is definitely worth every dollar.

One thing about that movie is that it keeps you thinking throughout the whole movie and even now as I blog I still hope that there is an explanation for it.

Some people this is how the director wants it to be and we decide on the ending ourselves but I can't! I need an answer! The more I think about it and read other reviews (thinking that I can get an answer I am satisfied with) the more confused I got.

This is what I think.

Theory A
Leo eventually woke up and sees his kids for real.
(for people who are optimistic)

This is possible as he didn't actually get to see his kids faces in his dreams. In his dreams, he only get to see their back view and then they would just run away like that.

Then my other theory for this is also because the "spinning top'' kinda wobble at the end of the movie, which also meant that he wasn't dreaming after all.

Theory B
Leo was still dreaming and didn't manage to woke up despite the vehicle falling off the bridge.

Ok, so in the beginning of the movie they said that they WILL wake when there is like a "sudden fall"

But the fall off the bridge didn't seem to woke poor Leo up. Therefore, he may be STILL in his dreams though we saw a scene of him in waking up at the plane and at the airport.

But still, if the theory is that, nothing did actually jerk him up therefore he didn't woke up from dreams.

So yes, Leo managed to see the cute faces of his kids but it also said earlier in the movie that he has been away from home for long. Then shouldn't his kids be grown up by then when he sees them at the end? And tell me why the fuck are the kids wearing the same clothes.

Another thing is that the very fact that the movie confused us all at the beginning made me feel that this was all a dream.

Then there's others who said that when Leo was at the airport ppl stared at him.

Well, if I had to die die come out with a conclusion I would say... Leo was still in his dreams. Sad, but all theories seem to fit quite well.

Anyway, it's getting late 3:14am alr. Time to continue with my schoolwork and catch some sleep. No pictures to upload. Google the word pig and that's me.

Sent from my iPod

2010-07-25T14:17:00.009+08:00

The past 2 days has been pretty good for me. Celebrated Ken’s birthday on Friday and Saturday. It wasn’t really well organized at first but still managed to salvage the whole screwed up plan at the last hour. (or possibly the last 10mins)

We actually wanted to go for a movie marathon but decided to drop the idea since that is what we normally do during our weekends. So instead, we went to settlers cafe which is situated at Clarke Quay. I can never get enough of that wonderful place. It’s so full of joy and laughter.

It’s unlike the other places we go. Over there, no one gives a fuck even if you laugh really loudly at a game or scream your lungs out (well, if that’s possible, we all would have been lung-less by now). So played the usual few. ”Dinosaurs and bone” game, ”funny noises” game as well as my all time favorite Taboo. We had a great time.

Oh and forgot to mention that we were so well equipped with camera yesterday that we brought along all three types of cameras yesterday. Polaroid, DSLR as well as digital camera. It all came into good use!

After that we sat by the river to relax chit-chat and take some photos. We had a great view by the river too. We can actually see the bungee jump from where we are siting and yesterday was extra special because I managed to go really close to the bungee jump. Damn, it is so scary. I, myself wouldn't have the guts to try it.

So when Peg and Sz came and join us later that evening, we went to have our dinner at a Japanese Restaurant at Central Point level 3 right beside the elevator. I love the food there. All thanks to xuan from introducing that place to me.

There were 9 of us in total so we were privileged to get the special room just us. Again, I love. I love the piracy we had and of course, we did lots some stupid things and took a couple of pictures.

Pictures of me trying very hard to capture a good view.

these 2 pictures uploaded are the only pictures that has a view of the room we were in.

(I look surprising slimmer in this two pictures. I must have had remembered to tuck in my big fat stomach).

On a random note, I just gained 0.5kg and even had curry chicken for lunch just now. zzz

So after our dinner we went on a mission that we will never ever forget and so that took up almost 1-2hours. After that, we took a train back Jurong Point to catch Sorcerer's Apprentice. Strictly speaking, it wasn't quite a good movie. Everything about it is so predictable you'd know what is going to happened next. It's something I would rather to watch, illegally. I personally will rate it 2.5/5 but the humour wasn't too bad so probably another 0.5 but still... quite bad.

After the movie we went to settle some money issues. I spend quite a bit on birthdays this month. One more to go and we are going to have a super long break before we start to stress on what to get and stuff.

I thought this post was rather ''detailed'' compared to the rest. I don't know why. I just had the mood for it.

Same angle same boring smile

And last Tuesday my hamster gave birth to little pups. There is suppose to be 5 of them but 3 got eaten up but the other 2 are looking good and I hope they will be able to survive through this crucial period. Oh and I am keeping it if they are of the same gender because I only have two cages and I can't possibly put male and female together cause it's incest and when they fuck they are going to have deformed pups or short-lived. I hope both are males though.

One of the little baby. It doesn't look cute at all seriously. It looks very raw and scary.

I saw this beautiful mansion at the pet shop yesterday it is so pretty I hope I can get it if I have like 6 hamsters of the same gender. I'm just saying lar. Cleaning the whole cage is hard work.

Again, I will be busy with test and presentation next week. Hai....

2010-07-17T15:04:00.004+08:00

Term 2, Week 1

It has been the most unproductive week I had since school started. I kept falling asleep during lectures and I am quite surprise that I could actually fall asleep with my arms crossed and my head bending forward. It used to give me serious neck ache but now I seem to have master it after countless long bus rides to school.

and I finally got bus concession @ $52. From today onwards I am going to try to take a bus wherever I go and spam it like mad.

Anyway, I learned quite few interesting skills this week during my practical lesson. 3 to be exact.
One of which is the removal of IV cannula. IV cannula is tube which is inserted into the body for medication. I never thought that IV cannula is a tube. I always thought that it was a needle.

I remember having it when I was at about 7-8yrs old. I was admitted to hospital because I didn't had enough water or something like that. That is so me. Even until today I drink less than 1litre of liquid in a day. My 600ml water can still last me for 2days. It's horrible! I guess my body has much lesser liquid than a normal person. Constipation? It's become a everyday thing for me.

Back to where I was. IV cannula. Coincidentally after my practical lesson that day I went to visit Mama at SGH. She was again admitted to the hospital because she had blood in a stool and when I was there on Thursday it was her 6th day of admission already. Nobody told me that she was admitted to hospital! I only found out about it on Wednesday. This is the thing about my family. The only person I communicate the the most at home is Jiejie Catherine. Even so the only few things I talk to her about is,

"Jiejie Cat, where are my jeans?''
"Jiejie Cat, what's dinner?''
''Jiejie Cat, I wear like that funny not?''
''Jiejie Cat, can you help me refill my water bottle and remember to rinse it first.''
''Jiejie Cat, where's Sir not going to work today?''

When I visited Mama on Thursday she was having blood transfusion and I actually saw the IV tubing myself. It was quite interesting to really go and observe the whole process. Again, if I wasn't in Nursing, I wouldn't give a fuck to such thing. Mama was so happy to see us. When she saw me she said she misses me especially when she saw the nurses around her. After hearing what she said, the first thing the struck my mind was, ''damn, I wonder how many times she told healthcare workers there that she has a granddaughter that is studying nursing'' I am so cui myself I don't really dare to share my experience in details.

and I do hope Mama gets better. She is flying to Europe on Tuesday already. Damn, I so wanna join them but the ticket is motherfucking expensive. It's 4.8k per person and they will be flying in the super high end airline. Flying Emirates.

So now I can only wish that mummy will buy something nice for me. I asked for a nice bag as long as it's durable. Something that I can carry to school.

Oh and during my visit, I also saw one patient who looks like she was in a coma. She just got admitted in the hospital and was using a ventri mask. I felt so lucky that day. I got to see whatever I learned that week. Hmm... lucky for me but not quite ''lucky'' for her family members. It pains me to see the faces of the patients family members...

Again, I feel lucky being me again. I wish everyone esp my family and friends to be in good health. I don't wanna see them suffer...

Time now is 4:41pm I should make full of of my time and start revising my work. Before I go I finally found of two types sickness that really scares the shit out of me.

1. Necrotic

2. SMALLPOX
[I cringed at the sight of it]

2010-07-11T23:26:00.009+08:00

My 2 weeks of holiday has finally come to an end. This holiday wasn't that all good for me because I had very few hours of sleep. I find it hard to go back to sleep when I wake up early in the morning and it's only last night that managed to get 11 hours of sleep with the help liquor. I had 4-5cups of it and I already felt lightheaded. It wasn't even shots. I had zero shots last night.

Anyway, we celebrated Sandy's and Keith's birthday on Friday and Saturday. It didn't quite went according to plan but we still had fun. I thought the karaoke at CSC was quite fun. I had a great time singing to all my fav hits esp the songs by Taylor Swift. Her songs and lyrics are easier to sing to.

We took quite a bit of pictures the past 2 days and me being lazy again. I only picked a few pictures to upload. Some pictures were really good. I am impress with Peg's DSLR photo taking skills.

Peg made this cake.
(Funny how we don't give a shit to such cake when we see them in the market yet when you know that it's done by you dear friend it seems to be the nicest tasting cake on earth. You'd appreciate and fuck care about how much weight you gonna put on aft that sinful treat).

Birthday girl

While waiting to surprise the birthday girl at 2am we hang around the park near jurong point and took photos.

I like this picture because there's a ghostly figure of me behind.

The boy who played with fire

Ending this post of with pictures of my fav pictures of the birthday girl and boy.

It's 12:27am already. Time to get some sleep. Not really looking forward to school tomorrow and I don't know why. I guess I had too much fun and I am not prepared to face the reality but I'm looking forward to see my God ma tomorrow!

2010-07-06T02:59:00.010+08:00

Gloomy Monday... not!

Today doesn't feel like Monday at all. Monday is suppose to be gloomy but today I'm in a really good mood. One reason being, I have finally completed all my projects. Both individual and group projects. It's all done! Now, I have all the time to catch up on my school work and spend more time with the people I love.

Oh and it's getting late. It's already 3:08am in the morning I have been up all night watching videos on youtube (RWJ to be exact) That guy is so full of shit. Doin' your mom... doin doin' doin' your mom..

Speaking of staying up late, I have been up this late for a couple of nights already and my eye bag is already as big as my Asian slit eyes. It's sad but really, this is the kind of thing I've been wanting to do since the school started. It's my form of relaxation.

Another good news to share. I am trying to bring back my ''jogging regimen'' which I attained two years ago (OMG, time really flies. It was really THAT long ago). And so I am having bad body aches for the past few days coming to weeks. I hope this will go away as soon as I get hang of it. The distance I covered for each session is about 4.6km. I'm hoping to jog 5km the next time but I am also quite surprise that my 65-66kg body is able to jog that far.

I will be super free tomorrow. Well, as long as Leanne doesn't call me. I want to continue watching RWJ'S vid and as always, Family Guy! Life is wonderful!

I took a couple of pictures recently using Webcam which has my fav ''The Hulk'' effect.

2 A student beside me. Well, at least I balance the intelligence level in this pic

Van is so into it!

On a random note, I feel that I haven't had a crush for the longest time. I wonder is it because I lost faith in men or am I living in constant denial or I just don't care.